My message for the world, based on saving my own life is – we are totally responsible for our physical, emotional, and spiritual health. Our physical lives are a reflection of our inner life. I have been hammering The Real Housewives of Beverly Hills star Yolanda Foster that her Lyme’s disease is a reflection of her personal fears not an act of God or a random act of nature. She thanked me lovingly on Twitter for sharing the information.
So yesterday when I threw a rib out lifting something heavy and could barely breath or stand, I knew it was my stuff not just an unfortunate accident. In my high-stress circle you have to be “Disabled” in some way to get a day off. I knew that was the subconscious reason I attracted the injury. So I set out to address it so I could make a video today (For my Love You Yo – tip of the day video series) telling Yolanda how I healed this serious injury in a day with nothing but my mind.
I had a business meeting yesterday on the other side of Portland and spent considerable time and expense to get there. My ride dropped me off and my associate didn’t show. So I was stranded. Long story. In my effort to find mass transit back home I ended up on the same block, at the exact moment that a man dove off a bridge into Johnson Creek trying to kill himself. While I was crossing the bridge my inner voice said, “Look over the bridge.” Apparently, while I was bent over the bridge the man was behind me on the other side and dove off. A man driving by saw him dive and by the time I rose up from looking over the bridge on the other side of the road there were cops and emergency vehicles appearing from everywhere.
I walked over to an embankment by the bridge to see what the commotion was about. I saw a man on his back by the creek. He was conscious, moving his legs and in great pain. I watched from the hillside for about ten minutes but my inner voice kept saying “Look over the bridge.” So I walked up to exactly where the man must have jumped and looked over. He was laying on his back 30 feet below surrounded by rescue workers but looked me right in the eye. I had on a loud, orange head wrap and knew he could see me so I decided to remain there, hanging over the edge smiling at him so he would have something other than the pain to focus on.
In that never-ending twenty-minutes or so that they worked to get a line in him and a back board under him I smiled for him but the lesson was for me. This is how serious it can get when we get overwhelmed and crave attention or nurturing. I had actually made a comment the day before that I have to have a tragedy to get a day off. And here I was crippled and witnessing this real tragic mess.
So I asked my friend Patrick to take on my load for the day, in spite of the fact his brother died this week and he is equally overwhelmed. I got the attention I needed so my injury didn’t put me in the hospital. I told myself all day that I would wake up fine today. I just needed a break and didn’t know how to just allow myself a day off – so I got injured. I know better now. And with no medication – just a little TLC from a friend and changing my mental conversation with myself, my back is healed today. Years back the same injury would have had me down for at least a month.
I pulled out of the grave 18 years ago by admitting that I had caused my ill health with my psycho-spiritual baggage and the comfort-consumption I used to run away from it. I am now healing other aspects of my life by owning every second of it. You can’t fix what you don’t own! Love yourself. Your life literally depends on it!